What Insomniacs Dream About

Originally published at Angels Dust. You can comment here or there.

I decided to start the 365 Project on Flickr. For those that don't know what it is, it's a project that entails you to take a photo of yourself everyday and submit it to the group. While I am not a very vain person, there were a few reason's I decided to get into it:

For one, I need the graphics practice for my upcoming college classes.

Two, I was considering taking a few photography classes and this might get me motivated. After all, my major is Web Design and if I have the ability to take my own photos for whatever websites I may do in he future, that saves me from Copyright. Also gives me more diverse skills and abilities that I know employers love.

Three, I need to keep busy so I don't go out and spend any more money, and especially this Summer, I need to keep busy so I will quit buying God-darned New Kids on the Block concert tickets.

Here's my 365 for today:

Cloud background image from: stephenbrooks.org

I attempted to blend a cloud background into a photo of me laying (and almost falling asleep) on the couch. I'm so tired but I loved the challenge of trying to cover that fact up. I've been having the worst time sleeping these past couple of weeks. I've been stressed and worried about everything in life. Am I going down the right path? What career will I be doing down the road? Is going back to college the right thing to do? Am I going to find a job once I graduate? Stress, stress, pull your hair out STRESS.

I've honestly been told by my Dad to go see a doctor because he thinks I have anxiety issues, (he has them really bad and he swears I got everything from him) but right now I refuse...there's just no time between work and school. Besides, I have faith I am a strong enough person to eventually get through it.

I had to drop my math class for the semester. I hate being a quitter but after missing a few classes it was just too hard to catch up. I will re-enroll in the class and get a tutor next semester. I will not give up.

So with that said, it took a lot of makeup to cover up the huge bags forming under my eyes and all the Sugar Free Red Bull and Starbucks in the world cannot make my life issues disappear, but it does keep me awake long enough to get some work done.

I still dream of becoming that successful woman one day and I will keep working at it...this is just a bump in the road.